8/29/18

Dearest One,

Its been 7 years since I posted on this blogger site.  Not a day goes by that I don't think about you still.  Its around the time when Mamaw died so its a tough time of year for me.  So what do you two do up there?  So many things have changed. Andrew is almost 17 now and is autistic.  I know you know this.  Life and dealing with his troubles are so stressful to say the least.  Emma is well.  She is so beautiful.  She reminds me of you.  You would be so proud of them both.   I am at that point again.  I don't know what I am doing any more.  All I do know is the pain has never left me.  It hurts just as bad today as it did the day you left. 

Gotta go sweetie, 

I love you so very much,

Mom

August 5, 2011

Dear Sarah

I can't help but to be depressed these days. School starts Tuesday. It makes my heart so sad to know that you will not be joining your friends in 9th grade. That is still classified as jr high at LCS but in my book its high school. I wonder just how beautiful you would be? How pretty your smile would be? How you would wear your hair? How you would be around your friends? Would you have a boy friend? Those answers are not important and I realize this. The only thing that is important is that we must first and foremost always put our Savior first.

I love you sweet girl with all of my heart.
Mommy

July 31, 2011

Long time no see,

Well today has been another one of those days. You know that kind of day where nothing really works as you plan. I don't know why I can't get my act together anymore. I still do the same stuff and I still pray for things and I do believe in the Father above. My only thing is is when can I get a break? You know how hard I work. You know how hard it is for me now. I just want to know when? I don't eat the things I used to eat. I have lost right at 50 pounds. I know you are proud of me. I so want you to look down and be proud of me. I want to be with you again one day. Please think of me sweet girl. My healt is not as good as it used to be. I have problems with what I do eat. My stomach is on strike I guess. LOL. I will go to the doctor as soon as I get insurance.

I love you sweet girl. I promise to write you again everyday.

To the moon and back!
Mommy

September 10, 2010

I love you sweet girl. Its hard to believe that you have been gone for as long as you have. It would seem that this is all a huge nightmare. The days are long and the nights longer. I miss you and I will see you soon.

I love you to the moon and back.
Mommy

Your birthday

A Special Birthday
(author unknown)
Please God, make them remember that
Today is a special, birthday.
Make them understand that
The memories don't go away.
Bless them, with ears to hear and hearts that care.
Enable them to listen while I share.
Shelter them that they may never know my pain.
Help them to help me know that my child's life was not in vain.
Help them to remember, Lord that I wish
That my child was here
So we could still celebrate.
To understand that I still
Feel the nearness of my child.
To see beyond my smile and the
Words. "I'm okay."
Please God, just let one remember today
Is a special birthday!

____________________

Many happy returns on the day of thy birth
May sunshine and happiness be given
And may the Dear Lord prepare you on earth
For the beautiful birthday in heaven.

So loved and missed by all.
Happy 13th Birthday, Sarah Elizabeth Council
7/22/97-5/21/09

June 20, 2010

My Dearest Sarah

Its been awhile since I have written to you. Its so hard to not think about you each day. I try not to to be honest because it just hurts so bad. I feel so lost without you still. I try so hard to get on with things but its hard. We went on vacation this year. I so wish you had been there. I know you would have enjoyed it. Emma is growing so fast. You would really love to be with her now. She likes to play games and stuff with Daddy. Andrew misses you so. He has grown up so much over this past year. It won't be long and school will start again. Your friends at school are growing up so much too. I know that you are in Heaven watching us all. I do hope you are enjoying your self. I can't wait to see you again. I can't wait to hear all the stories that you will want to share.

I love you to the moon and back
Mommy

Letter from God

"My dear one,


You are not alone. I am with you. I have loved you since before you were born. I was with you though all the hurt and pain. Only I understand how you feel inside. I am with you. I will go through this time with you. I can bring you through it. Ask Me to help you. I have a wonderful plan for your life.


Search for Me.


I will never let you go."


.............Love, God.